Why are you doing certain things? To gain something, to prove somebody, to find peace and happiness, to be free from worries and bondage, etc. Your answers may vary, but you have an end goal in mind. If you don't have any end goal, people will say that you are lost. You can also ponder this later, whether you are lost or not. But let's assume you have an end goal, and you also have some means to achieve it. You follow those means to reach that end. It's a simple process, nothing rocket science about it. I hope you are still following me. Now, regardless of your age, think about other kinds of goals you've set in life, and reflect on the whole process, as well as what life was like after achieving those goals. Did you get what you wanted? Whatever your 'Why' was, did you attain it? Things will get better, not just on paper, but in reality. (Your thought) Not the growth from one room to three rooms, though you can consider that as well to m...